For your information,you're just like a bullshit for me. start from now.

FUCK YOU

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Im fuckin sorry Im fuckin moody right now..Just skip what you're looking here..Dont give the fuckin damn comment..Its my life! Im fuckin enjoy it..The fella please shut your fuckin mouth please.

FUCKING THANKS TO THE WORLD!



Fuckin leopard,
-AshlynnC.

[无奈][空虚][寂寞][辛苦]

我想你了。可是，你在哪里？那是我摸索不到的地方，只能隐隐约约的清楚知道那地方好远好远、那城市好美好美。曾有过好几次想要与你到此为止的念头，可是不知因为什么又被打消了。我辛苦，等得好辛苦。你知道的，我是耐不住寂寞的女人，一旦觉得四周围静静的，我会害怕、会掉泪。可是你在哪里？我只需要有个人陪陪我、说说话、谈谈心，真的有这么难吗？



音乐播放器：好的事情---严爵


笨女人，
-AshlynnC.

What to do?

 I know you will always be that one guy to me. The one I fell head over heels for,the one that I will always question how it would be now had it worked out differently,and the one that I will always save a little piece of my heart for. But for now, I have glued myself back together and I am trying to start over new.
Maybe I can't erase you,maybe I'm not supposed to. But I need to do my best to put you in my past and forget about you because I can't let my last love be the one who left me stranded. Although I may be your unpicked, Im still holding out hope for the guy who does pick me.

So,...

For you: ''Just fly up high! You'll find a better one and you'll have a brightest future.

I BELIEVE THAT. ''





Playing song- Innocent (Avril Lavigne)

Loser,-

AshlynnC.

I want to love.love you.

So I'm 18 and I've found true, pure, honest love.
Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore. I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from thousands to zero. cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it to. I don't want it to happen because I want to love. Love you.

p/s: arghhh hell yeah,im fuckin' bored!


Loves,-
AshlynnC.

You Completed Me.

I'm writing this letter to you because I'm fuckin' miss you and idk what should I do right now..

Dear You:-
You knew it,the simple three words 'i love you' is the simple sentence to pronounce..but these words are always came from my true heart,always. You have been my greatest. My fear is that no one will ever be what you are to me. You are incredible and a man who will achieve all and know no boundaries, Im drawn to your soul like it was made to light mine up. Thank you for being the greatest thing that came into my life. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I can never hate you because I know that everything you did was out of love. And I hope you accomplish every goal you set for yourself, I hope you figure out everything you were unsure about, and I hope above all that you are happy. I will miss you,always...
And I knew that the reality is I love you and you love me. deal :)

Sincerely from,-
Loves,AshlynnC.

Am i right?

- i hope the answer is yes.-

Love.Life.

I just don’t know what to do.. i'm in love with him,i can’t imagine losing him but i can’t keep on doubting stuff. I'm  stuck in a dead end street. Tell me what to do? We have so much to look forward to and i owe that all to you. You turned my life into something beautiful. I'm still waiting,waiting and waiting..I knew that you're coming back soon.

And yeah peeps,fyi- I'm just back from genting..had lotsa fun over there *winks* thanks dad. Okayy,i've no idea to type much more..my brain stucked with the college stuffs. lmao. enjoy my pictures sharing:-

this chestnut is freaking nice, it ain't cheaaap!!! :(

do you ever see kinda pretty driver? lol shame. :P

3D's rock!

yeah still the same,shopping queen eva!!!

byebye genting highlands.

aww my lovely stuffs ;)

I  ♥ GENTING !





That's all,have a nice day peeps.
Loves,-
AshlynnC.
♥


Welcome September!

Hello peeps! Im back finally from national service with tidied heart..miss all the chinese guys,miss the moments we being together..
Hope that everyone is well throughout september and the upcoming month. Life’s been hectic as usual,but i tend to have more time for my own now,slowly gathering up all my feelings,putting them under shelter;picking up the bits&pieces and just living a happy life;) In life there’ll be never ending issues and its okay.I’ve learnt that in life,nothing is fair.So get used to it.No one will ever be treated fairly,this is life.
Its okay to mess up,you learn from your mistakes and you move on.Dwelling in the past won’t bring you anywhere further,whining on mistakes that you make won’t make you any better as well.Learn to let go,care less and you’ll be happier. *cheerrrrrssssss*

回来了` 坚强了` 重生了 ♥

一个月就这样过去了。我知道有很多东西我都无法把它追回来。就像是流过的岁月，和家人相处的时光，还有一切周遭发生的事情。错过了，就会不去了。

可是庆幸的是，全新的 陈燕玲 回来了！

还记得几个月前，我就像是只失魂落魄的流浪猫，漫无目标的走着，毫无方向感。曾经一次又一次的拥有想要轻生的念头，也许是自己活得太累了。几年来的生活风雨不改的为着一个人旋转，是的 我终于累了。把自己紧绷得太紧真的不是件好事，我竟然差点忘了，这世界比我想象中还要大，爱我的人比我想象中还要多。我不能够自私的只为一个人情绪化，我不能再继续忽略身边一直爱我等我的人。

这一个月国民服务里，我真的把心扩展了，我真的把视野开阔了！外面的世界是如此的精彩，外面的朋友是多么的和蔼。我不再把自己封闭起来，我不再因为你而不跟着世上的任何人打交道。我有我的生活。就这么一次专属于我的人生，我决定要把它过得无敌精彩、灿烂！过去颓废的日子就把它擦掉、毁灭掉。因为倘若一个人一直回忆过去，那就无法追上这时代的脚步了。我要往前看，我要让我的人生过得充满意义，我要真心地对待身边的每一个人、每一个生物。

说真的 我真的 他妈的 爱我现在的生活 ;)

-ashlynn :)

亲爱的，那些承诺我都记得，我会在原点等你。

时间过得真快，明天就要去国民服务了。本来还想目送男友上机，一切计划都彻彻底底泡汤了。谢谢你最后给我一个美好的回忆。这几个月的生活，我真的过得十分开心。我俩就像连体婴似的，紧紧地粘着彼此，不舍得离开对方。好想这样的生活就一直这样持续下去，永不变形。

试问，我无助时该像谁呐喊？遇到挫折时谁借我肩膀？流泪时谁帮我擦泪？毫无目标时谁牵着我向前迈进？生病了谁来照顾我为我吃药？睡不着时谁来为我讲故事哄我睡觉？开心时谁来和我一起分享喜悦兼庆祝？

是的，没有人。真的。

我知道，生活难免有凹凸不平，起起落落。该说再见的时候，谁也没办法把时间转回原点，甚至是回到一开始交往的时候。我一直在努力的祈求，无数次的祈求，祈求老天爷让时间停留一秒，我不贪心，一秒就好。如今的那一秒对我们来说是如此的珍贵。可是老天没回应我，祂也许是拒绝了。

老公，你说的对。我们之间的信任和爱都受到了考验。你说你有信心，那我也该小声地回答：“嗯，我也有。”你说的没错，我们的感情不用多说，在你我心中。

亲爱的，去到陌生的环境要好好照顾自己！他身边的俊男们，麻烦你们好好照顾我的男友，回来再请你们吃大大餐。美女们，交朋友倒是无所谓，动我的男人一根寒毛我真的会跟你们拼了。

请带着我的双眼去看看这美丽的都市，美丽的风景。请带着我的心去体会着热闹的气氛，那里的生活。我在你心中，一直都在。我相信你不会变，我真的相信了。可是对不起，眼泪一直不争气的留下来，我真的好舍不得你！我会坚强的！呼，我一定要坚强！我会在这里为你守候，为你祈求一切平平安安，也会帮你看看你的家人。

亲爱的，我先走了。可是我会站在原地等你回来。我俩说得一把眼泪一把鼻涕的那些承诺希望你都记得。我会把你锁在内心最深处，静静的 坚强的        等你回来。

我     爱    你

From-你的女人。

別等不該等的人，別傷不該傷的心。

请答应，专心看完。这是一种尊重=D

__________________________________________________________________________

愛的時候，讓他自由；不愛的時候，讓愛自由。
既在乎曾經擁有,也在乎天長地久
寧願高傲單身，也不委屈自己。
別等不該等的人，別傷不該傷的心。

有時，愛也是種傷害.
殘忍的人，選擇傷害別人;
善良的人，選擇傷害自己.
暗戀是最好的啞劇，說出來可能會變成悲劇

哭，並不代表我屈服；
退一步，並不像征我認輸；
放手，並不代表我放棄；
正如我微笑，並不意味著我快樂
只有放棄，沒有忘記。

看的淡一點，傷的就會少一點，時間過了，愛情淡了，也就散抵押了。
時間，讓深的東西越來越深，讓淺的東西越來越淺。

我笑，全世界都跟著我笑；我哭，………

全世界只有我一個人哭。

孤獨，不一定不快樂；
得到，不一定能長久。

失去不一定不再擁有，
可能因為某個理由而傷心難過
但卻能找個理由讓自己快樂

愛上一個人的時候，總會有點害怕，怕得到他;怕失去他。
不用等待的人，是幸福的.

我們真的要過了很久很久，才能夠明白,
自己真正懷念的,到底是怎樣的人,怎樣的事.
什麼事情都會習慣的，譬如別離和思念。

愛與被愛，不一定成正比。

在對的時間，遇見對的人，是一種幸福
在對的時間，遇見錯的人，是一種悲傷
在錯的時間，遇見對的人，是一聲歎息
在錯的時間，遇見錯的人，是一種無奈

不要輕言放棄,否則對不起自己

如果哪天，他為別人披上了嫁衣，
也許是因為年齡，也許是因為累了，
也許是因為真的想與那個人攜手一生…………

-ashlynn. 我的随笔心情 :)

Meaningful lifeee

Hello Hillo!!! Ohh Im back. Busy with many stuffs around my life. Fyi,I pass my car test todaaay! ;) The prettiest first time *winkss* Im going to PLKN this coming 15may. It's time to challenge myself, yeah.
For myself : girl you need to enjoy every seconds in your life now. no matter what happened or cheated by someone, you needa enjoy the feeling and fuck back the fella. this is lifeeee.
Okay I got it.fullstop. :)

-ashlynn. via

I hope you will follow...

夜太黑，夜凄美 。

好喜欢今夜的我俩。认真地诉说心事，抱怨地诉说恶人，我真的很喜欢。突然有架时光机把我带到了永恒，我俩真的已是老夫老妻了。白着头发的抱着下三代，牙齿掉光了的傻笑着。我爱，故我在。这每一段美好回忆都把我们带到了永恒。它告诉了我和自己心爱的人在一起是多么的幸福。庆幸的是，他也爱我。一起看两架跑车在比赛，顿时的我真的好幸福。我俩就像是童话里的两只小老鼠，甜甜的、细细的品尝着世间的美好，享受一起做傻事的时光。回家的路途，你开车，我躺在你肩膀，好几次眼珠辣辣的湿湿的，因为我想跟你说：“男人，请继续让我这么的幸福。”时间一秒一秒的过，日历一张一张的撕开，这表示对我来说噩梦般的日子快接近我了。不是我不信任你，而是我无法接受那0.000000000000000001%的机会失去你，你知道的。


p/s: 也许灯光太美了，感触真是多。:)

全世界晚安！！！♥♥♥

You Mean Everything To Me .

烦 。

有时候我觉得，生活并没有这么烦恼、急躁。只是有一些小细节使我打乱了阵脚，我无法冷静下来，静静地、心平气和地思考。我怎么了吗？伪装的那是啥笑容？真难看。五月中就要当兵去了，好烦。无法目送我的男人离开，我操，我的计划全废！希望一切决定不会让我后悔。目前的我，正在努力的收集回忆。四年了，回忆还是不够。我要的是永恒。但无论如何，至少倦了累了时，有满张记忆卡的照片影片让我重温，让我尝到的眼泪至少是甜的。抱歉，我是个缺乏安全感的女子。当别人需要一份厚厚的安全感时，而我却是需要双倍的。庆幸的是，这他都知道，他也做到了。其实感谢的客套话想和你说了很久，可是我知道你一定不会想听。每次说到一半，就把唇封住了我的嘴。真的很感谢你的包容、体谅、诚恳，还有最重要的就是你的那颗忠心。谢谢你。近来的每个凌晨，我都被那他妈的噩梦惊醒，难以继续入眠。抱着满床你送我的娃娃发抖，担心得脑都快爆开了。这么多年了，我们还真是没尝过类似的考验。可是我还是想谢谢老天爷给彼此这个考验，考验我俩比天高比海深的感情。

我 们 拼 了  =)


-ashlynn. via

Foolish .

I was freaking out the whole time that I walked from my gate to the end of the street. I tried to keep my pace steady. Nervousness and anticipation overwhelmed me. Each step that I took towards my heart started beating faster and faster. I tried to fix my eyes on something but my preoccupied mind would not let me do so. Okay, Im fucking upset now!


-ashlynn. via

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Wouldn't trade it for the world .

Relationships come with a lot of tribulations. We fight, we yell, we get jealous, we cry, we feel pain, we hurt, we scream, we get frustrated, we get angry, we get upset, we break up and our emotions take us over. So why do we do it? Why would we want to feel not just sad, but truly hurt, sad to the point where your whole body hurts just because of one person, sad to the point where you feel empty when everything falls apart, sad to the point where your heart aches for the company of that being. I’ll tell you why I do it, its because besides all those moments when your stupidity gets in the way of what your truly feeling and you “fight”, the moments when you are truly loving someone are the most touching, astounding, magnificent moments you will ever experience. When two people are just loving each other its magical. And to those of you who are to scared of getting hurt and too scared of the baggage that comes with relationships, let me tell you this, having someone you love and having them love you back is a feeling that you can not substitute. Having someone look at you with such a deep emotion is remarkable. Having someone touch with so much care brings a feeling of weightlessness throughout your whole body. Having someone whisper they love you feels like they screamed it. Having someone to hold your hand at all times just feels special. Having someone to be your best friend and be loyal to you and never lie to you feels so safe. So yeah, relationships suck, breaking up hurts, but having that someone that you feel so comfortable with, someone that you let inside your soul, someone that lets you inside theirs, someone to talk to at all hours during the day, someone to laugh with, someone to fall asleep with, having someone that is your other half for whatever amount of time you are together, is true beauty and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.


- ♥♥♥

cheers .

-ashlynn. via

Live my life ; Love my life .

Alohaa beautiful earthlings!!! Im fucking cheerful recently. Sorry for the language,but hell, I seriously dont know how to shout out my feeling. Forgive me okay? Please dont mind :) hehehe. Celebrated my darling's birthday on 22mac. Nothing much special,but I love the moments we gluing together, this is nothing beautiful than this. 23mac, Im seriously moody that time and feel like vomit when see some chicks's holy terror shit faces. When I get my result, I feel like ''WTH??? SERIOUSLY???'' The result was freaking perfect than I imagined during this 3 months ago. I ran like a gorgeous leopard out from school because mama was waiting me in car. Fyi, Im a lazy girl indeed. I burnt midnight oil before 2 months before I sit exam. Can you imagine? I used 2 months to read all of the subjects within 2 years. Im fucking proud of myself!!! ''Mama, I tried my best!!! Nah my result and thank you so much dearest mom! '' I can see the touching teardrop from her eyes. I hug my result and sleep tightly that night. Actually my result was dropped seriously during Form 2 & 3 caused by privacy problem. I remembered that disappointed faces from my parents. Right now, I did it!!! Dearest god, I can feel your bless all the time. Thank You and I swear upon my name that I will be more positive from every side to become a perfect girl and wont let the person who loved me feel disappear again.


I PROMISED.


Here some pictures sharing :-

Lets off to beach!!! :D
Ciaoo.


-ashlynn. via