♫ Ashlynn's Wide World ♫

Saturday, April 2, 2011

有时候我觉得，生活并没有这么烦恼、急躁。只是有一些小细节使我打乱了阵脚，我无法冷静下来，静静地、心平气和地思考。我怎么了吗？伪装的那是啥笑容？真难看。五月中就要当兵去了，好烦。无法目送我的男人离开，我操，我的计划全废！希望一切决定不会让我后悔。目前的我，正在努力的收集回忆。四年了，回忆还是不够。我要的是永恒。但无论如何，至少倦了累了时，有满张记忆卡的照片影片让我重温，让我尝到的眼泪至少是甜的。抱歉，我是个缺乏安全感的女子。当别人需要一份厚厚的安全感时，而我却是需要双倍的。庆幸的是，这他都知道，他也做到了。其实感谢的客套话想和你说了很久，可是我知道你一定不会想听。每次说到一半，就把唇封住了我的嘴。真的很感谢你的包容、体谅、诚恳，还有最重要的就是你的那颗忠心。谢谢你。近来的每个凌晨，我都被那他妈的噩梦惊醒，难以继续入眠。抱着满床你送我的娃娃发抖，担心得脑都快爆开了。这么多年了，我们还真是没尝过类似的考验。可是我还是想谢谢老天爷给彼此这个考验，考验我俩比天高比海深的感情。

我们拼了 =)

-ashlynn. via

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Foolish .

I was freaking out the whole time that I walked from my gate to the end of the street. I tried to keep my pace steady. Nervousness and anticipation overwhelmed me. Each step that I took towards my heart started beating faster and faster. I tried to fix my eyes on something but my preoccupied mind would not let me do so. Okay, Im ~~fucking~~ upset now!

-ashlynn. via

Monday, March 28, 2011

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Wouldn't trade it for the world .

Relationships come with a lot of tribulations. We fight, we yell, we get jealous, we cry, we feel pain, we hurt, we scream, we get frustrated, we get angry, we get upset, we break up and our emotions take us over. So why do we do it? Why would we want to feel not just sad, but truly hurt, sad to the point where your whole body hurts just because of one person, sad to the point where you feel empty when everything falls apart, sad to the point where your heart aches for the company of that being. I’ll tell you why I do it, its because besides all those moments when your stupidity gets in the way of what your truly feeling and you “fight”, the moments when you are truly loving someone are the most touching, astounding, magnificent moments you will ever experience. When two people are just loving each other its magical. And to those of you who are to scared of getting hurt and too scared of the baggage that comes with relationships, let me tell you this, having someone you love and having them love you back is a feeling that you can not substitute. Having someone look at you with such a deep emotion is remarkable. Having someone touch with so much care brings a feeling of weightlessness throughout your whole body. Having someone whisper they love you feels like they screamed it. Having someone to hold your hand at all times just feels special. Having someone to be your best friend and be loyal to you and never lie to you feels so safe. So yeah, relationships suck, breaking up hurts, but having that someone that you feel so comfortable with, someone that you let inside your soul, someone that lets you inside theirs, someone to talk to at all hours during the day, someone to laugh with, someone to fall asleep with, having someone that is your other half for whatever amount of time you are together, is true beauty and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

- ♥♥♥

Sunday, March 27, 2011

cheers .

-ashlynn. via

Friday, March 25, 2011

Live my life ; Love my life .

Alohaa beautiful earthlings!!! Im fucking cheerful recently. Sorry for the language,but hell, I seriously dont know how to shout out my feeling. Forgive me okay? Please dont mind :) hehehe. Celebrated my darling's birthday on 22mac. Nothing much special,but I love the moments we gluing together, this is nothing beautiful than this. 23mac, Im seriously moody that time and feel like vomit when see some chicks's holy terror shit faces. When I get my result, I feel like ''WTH??? SERIOUSLY???'' The result was freaking perfect than I imagined during this 3 months ago. I ran like a gorgeous leopard out from school because mama was waiting me in car. Fyi, Im a lazy girl indeed. I burnt midnight oil before 2 months before I sit exam. Can you imagine? I used 2 months to read all of the subjects within 2 years. Im fucking proud of myself!!! ''Mama, I tried my best!!! Nah my result and thank you so much dearest mom! '' I can see the touching teardrop from her eyes. I hug my result and sleep tightly that night. Actually my result was dropped seriously during Form 2 & 3 caused by privacy problem. I remembered that disappointed faces from my parents. Right now, I did it!!! Dearest god, I can feel your bless all the time. Thank You and I swear upon my name that I will be more positive from every side to become a perfect girl and wont let the person who loved me feel disappear again.

I PROMISED.

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