What to do?

 I know you will always be that one guy to me. The one I fell head over heels for,the one that I will always question how it would be now had it worked out differently,and the one that I will always save a little piece of my heart for. But for now, I have glued myself back together and I am trying to start over new.
Maybe I can't erase you,maybe I'm not supposed to. But I need to do my best to put you in my past and forget about you because I can't let my last love be the one who left me stranded. Although I may be your unpicked, Im still holding out hope for the guy who does pick me.

So,...

For you: ''Just fly up high! You'll find a better one and you'll have a brightest future.

I BELIEVE THAT. ''





Playing song- Innocent (Avril Lavigne)

Loser,-

AshlynnC.

I want to love.love you.

So I'm 18 and I've found true, pure, honest love.
Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore. I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from thousands to zero. cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it to. I don't want it to happen because I want to love. Love you.

p/s: arghhh hell yeah,im fuckin' bored!


Loves,-
AshlynnC.

You Completed Me.

I'm writing this letter to you because I'm fuckin' miss you and idk what should I do right now..

Dear You:-
You knew it,the simple three words 'i love you' is the simple sentence to pronounce..but these words are always came from my true heart,always. You have been my greatest. My fear is that no one will ever be what you are to me. You are incredible and a man who will achieve all and know no boundaries, Im drawn to your soul like it was made to light mine up. Thank you for being the greatest thing that came into my life. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I can never hate you because I know that everything you did was out of love. And I hope you accomplish every goal you set for yourself, I hope you figure out everything you were unsure about, and I hope above all that you are happy. I will miss you,always...
And I knew that the reality is I love you and you love me. deal :)

Sincerely from,-
Loves,AshlynnC.

Am i right?

- i hope the answer is yes.-

Love.Life.

I just don’t know what to do.. i'm in love with him,i can’t imagine losing him but i can’t keep on doubting stuff. I'm  stuck in a dead end street. Tell me what to do? We have so much to look forward to and i owe that all to you. You turned my life into something beautiful. I'm still waiting,waiting and waiting..I knew that you're coming back soon.

And yeah peeps,fyi- I'm just back from genting..had lotsa fun over there *winks* thanks dad. Okayy,i've no idea to type much more..my brain stucked with the college stuffs. lmao. enjoy my pictures sharing:-

this chestnut is freaking nice, it ain't cheaaap!!! :(

do you ever see kinda pretty driver? lol shame. :P

3D's rock!

yeah still the same,shopping queen eva!!!

byebye genting highlands.

aww my lovely stuffs ;)

I  ♥ GENTING !





That's all,have a nice day peeps.
Loves,-
AshlynnC.
♥


Welcome September!

Hello peeps! Im back finally from national service with tidied heart..miss all the chinese guys,miss the moments we being together..
Hope that everyone is well throughout september and the upcoming month. Life’s been hectic as usual,but i tend to have more time for my own now,slowly gathering up all my feelings,putting them under shelter;picking up the bits&pieces and just living a happy life;) In life there’ll be never ending issues and its okay.I’ve learnt that in life,nothing is fair.So get used to it.No one will ever be treated fairly,this is life.
Its okay to mess up,you learn from your mistakes and you move on.Dwelling in the past won’t bring you anywhere further,whining on mistakes that you make won’t make you any better as well.Learn to let go,care less and you’ll be happier. *cheerrrrrssssss*

回来了` 坚强了` 重生了 ♥

一个月就这样过去了。我知道有很多东西我都无法把它追回来。就像是流过的岁月，和家人相处的时光，还有一切周遭发生的事情。错过了，就会不去了。

可是庆幸的是，全新的 陈燕玲 回来了！

还记得几个月前，我就像是只失魂落魄的流浪猫，漫无目标的走着，毫无方向感。曾经一次又一次的拥有想要轻生的念头，也许是自己活得太累了。几年来的生活风雨不改的为着一个人旋转，是的 我终于累了。把自己紧绷得太紧真的不是件好事，我竟然差点忘了，这世界比我想象中还要大，爱我的人比我想象中还要多。我不能够自私的只为一个人情绪化，我不能再继续忽略身边一直爱我等我的人。

这一个月国民服务里，我真的把心扩展了，我真的把视野开阔了！外面的世界是如此的精彩，外面的朋友是多么的和蔼。我不再把自己封闭起来，我不再因为你而不跟着世上的任何人打交道。我有我的生活。就这么一次专属于我的人生，我决定要把它过得无敌精彩、灿烂！过去颓废的日子就把它擦掉、毁灭掉。因为倘若一个人一直回忆过去，那就无法追上这时代的脚步了。我要往前看，我要让我的人生过得充满意义，我要真心地对待身边的每一个人、每一个生物。

说真的 我真的 他妈的 爱我现在的生活 ;)

-ashlynn :)

亲爱的，那些承诺我都记得，我会在原点等你。

时间过得真快，明天就要去国民服务了。本来还想目送男友上机，一切计划都彻彻底底泡汤了。谢谢你最后给我一个美好的回忆。这几个月的生活，我真的过得十分开心。我俩就像连体婴似的，紧紧地粘着彼此，不舍得离开对方。好想这样的生活就一直这样持续下去，永不变形。

试问，我无助时该像谁呐喊？遇到挫折时谁借我肩膀？流泪时谁帮我擦泪？毫无目标时谁牵着我向前迈进？生病了谁来照顾我为我吃药？睡不着时谁来为我讲故事哄我睡觉？开心时谁来和我一起分享喜悦兼庆祝？

是的，没有人。真的。

我知道，生活难免有凹凸不平，起起落落。该说再见的时候，谁也没办法把时间转回原点，甚至是回到一开始交往的时候。我一直在努力的祈求，无数次的祈求，祈求老天爷让时间停留一秒，我不贪心，一秒就好。如今的那一秒对我们来说是如此的珍贵。可是老天没回应我，祂也许是拒绝了。

老公，你说的对。我们之间的信任和爱都受到了考验。你说你有信心，那我也该小声地回答：“嗯，我也有。”你说的没错，我们的感情不用多说，在你我心中。

亲爱的，去到陌生的环境要好好照顾自己！他身边的俊男们，麻烦你们好好照顾我的男友，回来再请你们吃大大餐。美女们，交朋友倒是无所谓，动我的男人一根寒毛我真的会跟你们拼了。

请带着我的双眼去看看这美丽的都市，美丽的风景。请带着我的心去体会着热闹的气氛，那里的生活。我在你心中，一直都在。我相信你不会变，我真的相信了。可是对不起，眼泪一直不争气的留下来，我真的好舍不得你！我会坚强的！呼，我一定要坚强！我会在这里为你守候，为你祈求一切平平安安，也会帮你看看你的家人。

亲爱的，我先走了。可是我会站在原地等你回来。我俩说得一把眼泪一把鼻涕的那些承诺希望你都记得。我会把你锁在内心最深处，静静的 坚强的        等你回来。

我     爱    你

From-你的女人。