[无奈][空虚][寂寞][辛苦]

我想你了。可是，你在哪里？那是我摸索不到的地方，只能隐隐约约的清楚知道那地方好远好远、那城市好美好美。曾有过好几次想要与你到此为止的念头，可是不知因为什么又被打消了。我辛苦，等得好辛苦。你知道的，我是耐不住寂寞的女人，一旦觉得四周围静静的，我会害怕、会掉泪。可是你在哪里？我只需要有个人陪陪我、说说话、谈谈心，真的有这么难吗？



音乐播放器：好的事情---严爵


笨女人，
-AshlynnC.

What to do?

 I know you will always be that one guy to me. The one I fell head over heels for,the one that I will always question how it would be now had it worked out differently,and the one that I will always save a little piece of my heart for. But for now, I have glued myself back together and I am trying to start over new.
Maybe I can't erase you,maybe I'm not supposed to. But I need to do my best to put you in my past and forget about you because I can't let my last love be the one who left me stranded. Although I may be your unpicked, Im still holding out hope for the guy who does pick me.

So,...

For you: ''Just fly up high! You'll find a better one and you'll have a brightest future.

I BELIEVE THAT. ''





Playing song- Innocent (Avril Lavigne)

Loser,-

AshlynnC.

I want to love.love you.

So I'm 18 and I've found true, pure, honest love.
Everyday I tell myself that your not longer a big part of me. Sometimes I really believe it, sometimes I actually think that you don't mean a god damn thing to me. Every time that thought appears I feel relieved, I feel less vulnerable, it feels like you can't affect me anymore. I've repeated this thought so many times that I've almost made it true. At the same time it makes me so freaking scared of moving forward, cause what happens when you stop loving someone? What happens when you someday wake up and realize that this person actually doesn't mean anything to you? How can you manage to go from thousands to zero. cause that day will eventually come. The only thing you have left is the beautiful memories that you hopefully will carry with you your whole life. But I'm so afraid of that day coming, because I don't want it to. I don't want it to happen because I want to love. Love you.

p/s: arghhh hell yeah,im fuckin' bored!


Loves,-
AshlynnC.

You Completed Me.

I'm writing this letter to you because I'm fuckin' miss you and idk what should I do right now..

Dear You:-
You knew it,the simple three words 'i love you' is the simple sentence to pronounce..but these words are always came from my true heart,always. You have been my greatest. My fear is that no one will ever be what you are to me. You are incredible and a man who will achieve all and know no boundaries, Im drawn to your soul like it was made to light mine up. Thank you for being the greatest thing that came into my life. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I can never hate you because I know that everything you did was out of love. And I hope you accomplish every goal you set for yourself, I hope you figure out everything you were unsure about, and I hope above all that you are happy. I will miss you,always...
And I knew that the reality is I love you and you love me. deal :)

Sincerely from,-
Loves,AshlynnC.

Am i right?

- i hope the answer is yes.-

Love.Life.

I just don’t know what to do.. i'm in love with him,i can’t imagine losing him but i can’t keep on doubting stuff. I'm  stuck in a dead end street. Tell me what to do? We have so much to look forward to and i owe that all to you. You turned my life into something beautiful. I'm still waiting,waiting and waiting..I knew that you're coming back soon.

And yeah peeps,fyi- I'm just back from genting..had lotsa fun over there *winks* thanks dad. Okayy,i've no idea to type much more..my brain stucked with the college stuffs. lmao. enjoy my pictures sharing:-

this chestnut is freaking nice, it ain't cheaaap!!! :(

do you ever see kinda pretty driver? lol shame. :P

3D's rock!

yeah still the same,shopping queen eva!!!

byebye genting highlands.

aww my lovely stuffs ;)

I  ♥ GENTING !





That's all,have a nice day peeps.
Loves,-
AshlynnC.
♥


Welcome September!

Hello peeps! Im back finally from national service with tidied heart..miss all the chinese guys,miss the moments we being together..
Hope that everyone is well throughout september and the upcoming month. Life’s been hectic as usual,but i tend to have more time for my own now,slowly gathering up all my feelings,putting them under shelter;picking up the bits&pieces and just living a happy life;) In life there’ll be never ending issues and its okay.I’ve learnt that in life,nothing is fair.So get used to it.No one will ever be treated fairly,this is life.
Its okay to mess up,you learn from your mistakes and you move on.Dwelling in the past won’t bring you anywhere further,whining on mistakes that you make won’t make you any better as well.Learn to let go,care less and you’ll be happier. *cheerrrrrssssss*

回来了` 坚强了` 重生了 ♥

一个月就这样过去了。我知道有很多东西我都无法把它追回来。就像是流过的岁月，和家人相处的时光，还有一切周遭发生的事情。错过了，就会不去了。

可是庆幸的是，全新的 陈燕玲 回来了！

还记得几个月前，我就像是只失魂落魄的流浪猫，漫无目标的走着，毫无方向感。曾经一次又一次的拥有想要轻生的念头，也许是自己活得太累了。几年来的生活风雨不改的为着一个人旋转，是的 我终于累了。把自己紧绷得太紧真的不是件好事，我竟然差点忘了，这世界比我想象中还要大，爱我的人比我想象中还要多。我不能够自私的只为一个人情绪化，我不能再继续忽略身边一直爱我等我的人。

这一个月国民服务里，我真的把心扩展了，我真的把视野开阔了！外面的世界是如此的精彩，外面的朋友是多么的和蔼。我不再把自己封闭起来，我不再因为你而不跟着世上的任何人打交道。我有我的生活。就这么一次专属于我的人生，我决定要把它过得无敌精彩、灿烂！过去颓废的日子就把它擦掉、毁灭掉。因为倘若一个人一直回忆过去，那就无法追上这时代的脚步了。我要往前看，我要让我的人生过得充满意义，我要真心地对待身边的每一个人、每一个生物。

说真的 我真的 他妈的 爱我现在的生活 ;)

-ashlynn :)